CHARM FOR
THE TUNE
by Michael Curtis
excerpted from the book Fish
Story
Naked, alone, confused she wanders
Through the moon-less night;
Her flesh is torn by brambles
While demons tear her mind;
There are eerie shadows in the sky,
And there is terror in her eyes.
There is a dream distorted by
Death, and blood, and horror
Where she in passion trembles
For the kisses of her lover,
For the drum beat of his rhythm,
For the song of life within him.
But now her bowels are empty, scraped
Raw, and dry, and barren,
And the dream, the hope, the wishes
Abruptly have an ending.
For a girl must make her choices
Before she hears the voices
Of little spirits crying in
The nether realms of air,
Up there where eerie shadows linger
And bat eyes blankly stare,
Where bat wings flitter after insects,
Like demons licking after sins.
After she has made her choices,
Rid herself of flesh, that
Little spirit rises disem-
Bodied through the blackness.
A shadow in the moonless night.
Lifeless, formless on wings it ri-
Ses crying voiceless in the sky
Above the tiny fish
Like body, blind and breathless, cold,
Dead, and dry. With hope this
Flesh might yet have been a woman,
But murdered it sinks to earth again.
Exhausted, on the sharp-blade grasses
An embryo she lies
Dripping blood from many wounds,
As though her flesh would cry
Into the mother of her womb,
The body of her daughter’s tomb,
The cradle that so gently kept her,
Held her, loved her, fed her.
Now she weeps into her Mother
Earth the pain of murder;
The knowledge that she a child
Unmothered by the earth would die.
Earth, if she too were human,
Should abort this daughter,
Tear her from the yawning womb
As the daughter tore hers.
And in the dream she can suppose
That here a child enwombed grows
From spirit to a living flesh,
Safe, secure, and warm,
As does the field golden grown to
Richness in harvest corn;
Grown to feed the peopled earth
By the wonder of her birth. Then
Dreamless she to the void descends…
Not black, but emptiness,
Terrible nothing where nothing
Beginning can end – less
Than nothing – oblivion.
Near her in the darkness, lost, husband
Of the nothingness, party to
The sin; his child un-
Wanted, unasked, unsought; no cause
Has he beneath the sun,
For none has he to give a name,
No purpose, no reason, no claim
Upon the barren earth – his seeds
Never to come to birth,
His seeds aborted, scraped out
To dry upon the dirt.
O nevermore a fruitful land
When earth aborts the seeds of men.
Waking from her fevered dream
A vision wonderful
She sees; A million spirits ri-
Sing, silver glowing all
Into the vastness of the night
Until but one is lost to sight
And lingers for a moment yet
Above the person of
The womb, as though a spirit could
Be held by the bonds of love.
But the spirit fleshless must dissolve
When woman bleeds. And that is all.
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